Part three: chpater 6

I was let go and able to continue the rest of my life in Oceania. I was sitting in the chestnut tree cafe where i visited regulary. I was listening to the telescreen eagerly to find out the new news the party was about to give us. I continued to think about what O'Brien had said to me and then the telescreen came on and everything clicked. I finally loved Big Brother and I was fixed. Everything was perfect now. My mind was fixed

Part three: chapter 5

I was finally in Room 101. The worst thing ever to happen. I would ask O'Brien what it was but in the back of my head I knew what it was. I was filled with so much fear because i knew that i was about to endure someting i never had before. Then it was my biggest fear of all, rats. I was having a panick attack and i had to get out of this. I knew that i could not possibly endure this so i started to think of any way I could to get out of it. The only thing that came to mind was to give up Julia and then at the top of my lungs i screamed Do it to Julia! not me! Julia! and O'Brien stopped. I had betrayed her and I did not care because all I cared about was myself in the moment.

Part three: chapter 4

I finally started to get fed and washed. I gained much of my wieght back and got a lot stronger. I finally felt good for however long i have been here. It is almost impossible to keep ttrack of time here so i don't try and bother. Now that I was feeling better, I sat down to try and understand O'Briens ways. I wrote down some slogans from the party and just stared at them and thought. Mabe in a way it was staring to come to me how the could make sense. Maybe I will grasp the whole concept after more talks with O'Brien

Part three: chapter 3

I have to go through three stages in my interrogation and O'Brien told me there was learning, understanding and finally accepting. Now I was being taught how to understand O'Brien's concepts. All alone in the room O'Brien just lectured me about the party and the whole reason i was here. If i said something wrong, all O'Brien had to do was turn the dial on the machine and i would become helpless. I talked very cautiously when we discussed everything. I still could not agree with him or the party, everything sounded so wrong and unjust. I hated Big Brother and I knew it. I tred to believe the things O'Brien said to me but I just couldn't. He told me I would learn someday and accept it but i have no clue when.

Part three: chapter two

The next thing I knew I was going thorugh the regular torture that everyone goes through when they are taken. I had to go through deathly beatings and then I was placed in a room with O'Brien who asked me several questions about my thoughts. He was asking me all these question to "fix" the way that I hink, or that is what he told me. I was strapped to a chair that did not allow to move at all and when I answered question incorrectly he would give me intolerable pain with a flick of the switch. It was the worst pain that i have ever felt in my whole life. It felt like my backbone was going to crack in half and O'Brien was the one putting me through it. The pain was meant to make me think the way I should.

Part Three: chapter 1

I was in a cold, dark cell. Not knowing the time or even what day it was. All I am thinking about is my uncontrollable hunger and at time Julia and O'Brien. I just sit for hours and hours until the gaurds may come in and tell prisoners their fate. It is horrible in here, I think I would rather be killed then go through the pain that might be given to me. All i know about this place is that Room 101 is a place I do not want to be in. It is worse then anything I could imagine. Worse than death or anything i have ever gone through. I just sit here hoping the gaurds do not call me to Room 101.

Part two:chapter 10

I am already changing inside to a human being again. I am feeling things that I have never thought before. The first time I saw the lady who always sings outside the window, I noticed that she was beautiful. I saw the best inside of her, something I have never done before. I usually walk right pass people and not even pay attention to anything about them. As me and Julia were talking we heard a voice behind the picture, the telescreen had been there all along and me and Julia were dead. I knew we would get caught someday and that day had finally come. They came in and took my Julia away from me, I knew at that moment that I would never see her again. I woul never see my love again, another thing the party has taken away from me, my only reason to live.

Part two: chapter 9

O'Brien gave me the goldstien book to read and I couldn't belive that I was actually holding it in my hands. I went up to the room and sat down to read it in privacy. It was amazing; it was the same things that I have been thinking for all these years. It clarifies that I was write and there are several more people that agree with what I think. As I read, I was fascinated with the Broteherhood and what it plans to do. Having this and being apart in something I belive in is already changing me and the society that I live in.

Part two:chapter 8

The day had come to finally meet with O'Brien. I have been waiting for this opurtunity for practically a life time. It was finally time for me to join the Brotherhood and rebel against the party. I will do anything it takes to take down Big Brother and have a better future and life for not only me but the people who are to come. The meeting with O'brien was nerve racking because I did not know what was going to happen. Right after me and Julia got there, he shut off his telescreen which put me into absolute shock. It was so strange that he had this kind of freedom. He asked Julia and I several questions on how we would serve the party and talked about meeting and the Brotherhood. This gave me another reason to live but also reason to die.

Part two: chapter seven

I had a dream about my mother and my sister. I have been murdering them all along. I was the one killing them for my own selfish needs. I had a vivid dream about my past, it is all comming back to me. I remeber eating all of the feed my family had and starving them, even my sick younger sister. I told this dream to Julia which of course did not think much about it but just listened. We started talking about how my mother always held us close to her in hard times. She knew that holding us wouldn't give us more food or make us less poor. It was just a loving, caring mother action. Then I realized that she still was human inside. She still felt love and care for her children. Then something came to me that I never realized; the party can change our minds but they cannot change what is inside of us. They cannot change our hearts.

Part two: chapter six

All of the things that I have been thinking about the brotherhood and all the thoughts about rebelling have been true. My thoughts and dreams about O'Brien have been correct too. O'Brien is against the party just as I am. He is part of a group that is also against the party, the Brotherhood. I knew that it exsisted, I have been waiting for this to happen for almost a lifetime. Just talking to O'Brien takes my dreams and thoughts and puts them into reality. I can rebell against the party with a group who think and feel just the same as I do.

Part two: chapter 5

The room is a sanctuary. The only place that I can be myself and enjoy being with Julia. It is my get away from the outside world of rountine. Doing the same boring thing everyday for the party who controlls everything we do. They even listen to us and watch us, but not in this room. This is a place I can run away to and feel safe and secure. This place seems so unreal that i know that it will have to end some day. Someone will find out and we will be killed but for now I do not care, i just keep returning to the room. In this place while Julia was sleeping, I think about rebelling against the party and if the Brotherhood is real. I dream of a better future with light at the end of the tunnel. I enjoy thinking of these things because it gives me hope not only for me but for the future.

Part two: chapter four

I found a place where me and Julia could go. Where we could be alone and talk and do whatever we pleased. We could have privacy, something that is very valubale since we never get it here. The room was perfect, it had a nice window where the sun shone in and a cool breeze. It was a perfect place for me and her to be together. I am finding myself getting attached to Julia, I am falling in love with her. Whenever she tells me that she cannot meet, i get very angry and upset. I even sometimes imagine us as a married couple being together all the time. Not having to meet in secret, but simply be together freely.

Part 2: chapter three

I am still meeting with Julia, we meet quite often and I like it. It gives me a reason to be living and getting throgh each day. I get to be excited and pleased about something in a world where it is hard to be happy about anything. When I with Julia, we talk about our lives freely. We talk about our jobs and our daily lives, it is always comfortbale. When I am negative about things, which I usually am, she corrects me and makes me feel positive. She makes me feel alive and young.

Part 2: chapter two

After getting the note from the girl, I had to see her and talk to her. I remember seeing her somtimes at work at lunch time so that would be my only chance. I sat down with her at lunch and she told me a time and place in which to meet. The next day, I went exactly where she told me and met her there. I was scared that we would be caught but she acted like she new exactly what she was doing. She brought me into one of her hiding spots in a meadow. There, her and I talked and got to know eachother. She was so youthful and felt the exact same way about the party as I did. At least now there is someone else in the world that will rebel and go against the rules. We decided to rebel against the rules and make a politcal act against the party. We also decieded to meet several more times which I was glad about. It was nice to have someone to rebel with.

Part two: Chapter 1

This girl keeps showing up in my life, I think she is watching me because she is always there. She is following me so I want to kill her or hurt her but for some strnage reason, I am drawn and attracted to her. Then one day in the hall of my apartment, I saw her walking towards me with a broken arm. Then, she fell and I decided to help her up. In my hand she left me a little note. I waited to get inside my apartment to open it so the telescreens wouldn't see. I imagined the note to say something mean or about how she has been watching me but as I unfolded the note, it said "I love you." I was astonished by what it said. A thousand thoughts were racing throught my head but I had to stay calm so the telescreens wouldn't see me getting worked up. I thought about her and the note for several hours and had a wierd urge to see her again, maybe just talk to her for a few seconds but that would be hard to manage with everyone and everything constantly watching.

Part One:
This place is darn and menacing. Everywhere I look is dark except for the Big Brother posters that make me shrink in fear every time I see the words "Big Brother is Watching You." I feel like there is always someone watching my every move, my every thought. The telescreens are everywhere; I hardly feel like my own person. I am being made into someone because i cannot say what I feel or even think what I feel for that matter. I do not like the life that I am living; i want to be free and live the way I want! I do not want anyone to control me. But for others, they swallow what "the party" is saying and do what they are told. I belive that there are other people like me who want down wit Big Brother and only in my dreams can these people join together and take down "the Party" I could see my family again and we would all be free together and think what we want and be what we want. The simple world freedom, brings light in the dark places. maybe there is a chance that we can all find freedom in this controlling, dark world.