Part three: chpater 6

I was let go and able to continue the rest of my life in Oceania. I was sitting in the chestnut tree cafe where i visited regulary. I was listening to the telescreen eagerly to find out the new news the party was about to give us. I continued to think about what O'Brien had said to me and then the telescreen came on and everything clicked. I finally loved Big Brother and I was fixed. Everything was perfect now. My mind was fixed

Part three: chapter 5

I was finally in Room 101. The worst thing ever to happen. I would ask O'Brien what it was but in the back of my head I knew what it was. I was filled with so much fear because i knew that i was about to endure someting i never had before. Then it was my biggest fear of all, rats. I was having a panick attack and i had to get out of this. I knew that i could not possibly endure this so i started to think of any way I could to get out of it. The only thing that came to mind was to give up Julia and then at the top of my lungs i screamed Do it to Julia! not me! Julia! and O'Brien stopped. I had betrayed her and I did not care because all I cared about was myself in the moment.

Part three: chapter 4

I finally started to get fed and washed. I gained much of my wieght back and got a lot stronger. I finally felt good for however long i have been here. It is almost impossible to keep ttrack of time here so i don't try and bother. Now that I was feeling better, I sat down to try and understand O'Briens ways. I wrote down some slogans from the party and just stared at them and thought. Mabe in a way it was staring to come to me how the could make sense. Maybe I will grasp the whole concept after more talks with O'Brien

Part three: chapter 3

I have to go through three stages in my interrogation and O'Brien told me there was learning, understanding and finally accepting. Now I was being taught how to understand O'Brien's concepts. All alone in the room O'Brien just lectured me about the party and the whole reason i was here. If i said something wrong, all O'Brien had to do was turn the dial on the machine and i would become helpless. I talked very cautiously when we discussed everything. I still could not agree with him or the party, everything sounded so wrong and unjust. I hated Big Brother and I knew it. I tred to believe the things O'Brien said to me but I just couldn't. He told me I would learn someday and accept it but i have no clue when.

Part three: chapter two

The next thing I knew I was going thorugh the regular torture that everyone goes through when they are taken. I had to go through deathly beatings and then I was placed in a room with O'Brien who asked me several questions about my thoughts. He was asking me all these question to "fix" the way that I hink, or that is what he told me. I was strapped to a chair that did not allow to move at all and when I answered question incorrectly he would give me intolerable pain with a flick of the switch. It was the worst pain that i have ever felt in my whole life. It felt like my backbone was going to crack in half and O'Brien was the one putting me through it. The pain was meant to make me think the way I should.

Part Three: chapter 1

I was in a cold, dark cell. Not knowing the time or even what day it was. All I am thinking about is my uncontrollable hunger and at time Julia and O'Brien. I just sit for hours and hours until the gaurds may come in and tell prisoners their fate. It is horrible in here, I think I would rather be killed then go through the pain that might be given to me. All i know about this place is that Room 101 is a place I do not want to be in. It is worse then anything I could imagine. Worse than death or anything i have ever gone through. I just sit here hoping the gaurds do not call me to Room 101.

Part two:chapter 10

I am already changing inside to a human being again. I am feeling things that I have never thought before. The first time I saw the lady who always sings outside the window, I noticed that she was beautiful. I saw the best inside of her, something I have never done before. I usually walk right pass people and not even pay attention to anything about them. As me and Julia were talking we heard a voice behind the picture, the telescreen had been there all along and me and Julia were dead. I knew we would get caught someday and that day had finally come. They came in and took my Julia away from me, I knew at that moment that I would never see her again. I woul never see my love again, another thing the party has taken away from me, my only reason to live.